Update on things and other extraneous thoughts/narratives:

Firstly, a little house keeping. It's Memorial Day and I have the day off and will be remaining in bed, in my sweatpants watching TV for as long as I can. (Dental appt. at 4:30 PM) Curently in the Bay Room, stretched out on the human size "dog" bed which is ridiculously comfy. Just finised a corn muffin and 2 hash browns from Cumberland Farms and sipping on an iced coffee. So good. Casey has been sleeping on the love seat behind me all night and shows no interest in moving. She's getting older - and looks so - and is much more inclined to snooze and rest. I hope this is an affect of age and not some ailment I can't detect. Derek was traipsing about the first floor for a bit earlier and even screamed at the door; his way of asking to be let out. It's currently in the 60s today so I plan on obliging him later when I have more initiative. And that's a good setup.

Major evaluations of who I am and who I've become as a person lead me to set forth these types of plans. At age 46, the time for laying blame, assigning responsibility, discovering "what happened," but mostly asking the question "why?" have all run their course. The growth and development phase, for whatever purpose they could ever even served in the purpose of inspecting what the life consists of, is over. Now the only course forward is staying alive, staying above water, maintaining as much health as possible, and devoting whatever time is left after all of these tasks to the personal projects that hold value for me. And this is the task of what follows in this entry.

I have and will have no female partner. Friends are dwindling as are the time and reasons to maintain friendships. My house is solid. I've settled into The Ice House, the land and my neighborhood. I work from home. My connection to any "greater world" is done solely through the internet. And this is a great asset, not a detail in a pitiable life.

As mentioned in a prior list, I want to wiz on Ancient Anguish. That alone is a goal to proud of. A feat to accomplish that requires time and effort and hold value in the eyes of the community. But beyond that, I want to advance to where I am actually coding new items/areas for the game. The world is 30+ years old and has been growing almost non stop. It is a world and it is a community. I want to be a part of not only interacting with that world, but helping it and helping to build it.

I want to create an admirable website dedicated to The Ice House: its history and its living manifestation through me and my experience with it. I sent in a public records request asking for as much info as possible. The response was immediate and friendly. They stated they would not be able to provide me with everything I requested and there would be a cost. I replied with a friendly request for a quote and received an immediate response that it would be coming the next day or the day after. That was 4 -5 days ago. Still, I am hopeful that it won't get lost. If the fees are under $100 then I can't think of a reason to not follow through, regardless of how slim the return on information may or may not be. At present, I am allowing myself the excuse that I am waiting for this info before I make an earnest effort to begin the site construction. But it may come to a point where I need to simply begin the first steps in order to cement the reality of its prospect before the inertia consumes the idea. This would most likely be me simply uploading current photos of the property in the simplest, yet tidiest and presentable, fashion. Just to have something there to get the ball rolling and to serve as a promise to myself. With all available components at hand, the site should serve as a vehicle for the two topics listed above: historical and current. The historical should be based off of whatever info I receive from the city: likely taking shape as a collection of photos, documents and then a text narrative written by myself. That narrative can either be standalone on its own page or entwined with the documents. We shall see. The living, current component should be mostly photos, setup in a format that allows for new contributions to be made so that the site is a living, growing document. The format/style should be dictated by the substance so it's hard to speculate how that will all "look" through this entry here.

And then there's another online community that I have been an active and noticeable contributor to for about 15 years now. It's tough to speak on "work" or "development" that can be spoken of for the future nor in hindsight, really. The mere fact that I can't and won't name it outright even in this entirely personal blog/diary speaks to this sentiment. That place is merely a plave to exist for the moment. That doesn't mean my character and manner of interacting there hasn't grown and changed. But this strict adherence to confidentiality, in itself, speaks much about how writing a plan of action for its future is so ephemeral as to be valueless.